I am sitting here sipping coffee from my favourite cup, wondering how nice it would be if we could try everything without risk, or is it the adrenaline of danger that keeps us rushing to the next adventure?
Before I ramble on, here are some tracks I’ve been enjoying recently:
Lost My Cool – Stand Atlantic
Beautiful Birds Flying – Valley Maker
Tested & Tried – All The Luck In The World
Atlas:Seven – Sleeping At Last
Malibu Nights – LANY
Push For Yellow (Shelter) – Valley
Being Strange – Indoor Pets
Narcissus – Deaf Havana
Smile – Hellions
Left Alone – Houses
Straight to My Head – You Me At Six
Smells Like Teen Spirit – Noah Gundersen
Life has a funny way of chucking me around in circles at the moment. I always knew deep down that I was strong, but recently I’ve been continuously tested in different ways and I’ve built up a resilience that is stronger than I’ve ever known to be capable of.
It feels like sinking when I’m standing in one place.
I’m not just referring to my relationships or life at home, this is about my career too.
I’ve been building up a ‘career’ for 6 years in the city, without a university degree and a lot of love for business. I don’t tend to talk about my job, I tend to keep these cards particularly close to my chest. Maybe I’m nervous of exposing anything inappropriate, but revealing what I’ve discovered recently might prevent it from happening again.
To avoid being cryptic, a few months ago I decided to leave a job I had been doing for 4 years as a Senior PA and Marketing Assistant. I searched high and low for my next opportunity, not always 100% sure if I wanted to pursue a marketing related role or executive support.
When I had finally decided, I met with a new recruiter. As it turns out this recruiter was the wrong person to tell. They created this magical role, almost exactly how I described and I was miss sold a job.
It didn’t take long for me to pick up on the underlying issues at the business I went to work with. The MD was quite evidently a malicious bully. There were hidden finances to benefit his pocket, a diminishing team of overworked staff, amongst all sorts of other dodgy deals.
It was a toxic environment that I had been so lucky to avoid before. It didn’t take long to be consumed in pressure, stress and negativity. Within days I was searching for a new opportunity.
Luckily I have found what I was looking for all along. In my new role I’ll be dealing with business operations and marketing management. Something that ticks all the boxes along with a sparkling salary and benefits to match. I start my new job next week, and I have a super positive feeling about this one.
Referring back to relationships and life at home, it has been an equal challenge. I’m becoming quite fearful of how quickly relationships burn out. We’re all so busy with our own lives, making sure we’re always productive and resourceful with our time. It’s like people don’t have time for each other anymore. I’m moving on and i’m trying to take a chance, persist and regain trust.
My career and relationships, old and new, malicious and promising – who knew which path to take, or which door to open or which box to pick. A or B. Left or right. 1, 2, 3… & just like that, for the third time this year I am back at this desk, having learnt another hard life lesson. Do not fall in love with your best friend and do not accept job opportunities from a monster in disguise.
Lesson learnt, I’m striding on to the next and final chapter of the year. New job, new achievements, new skills, new friends, healthy relationships and genuine people. Plus lots of positive vibes, I think it’s time for something good to happen.